IF YOU BELIEVE YOU CAN. YOU CAN.

I'm Sophie and I'm 19 and living in North London, I am hoping to study illustration this year. I have also been in recovery from anorexia nervosa since May 2011 and this is my little blog of what I get up to day to day.
 I suffered badly and it nearly took away everything I had. I like to think I can offer help and advice to anyone suffering or at least can just be there to listen if you need to talk. Ask me Anything!
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There we go, unfollowed a load of instagrams that I find ‘triggering’

Yes, a load of them have recently turned vegan and are also deep into their eating disorder.

Yes, some of them are friends of mine.

No that doesn’t mean I hate animals or whatever else the many anons have sent me.

I really am in such a horrible place right now if its not obvious from my blog lately, and I can’t do anything without offending people. I am sick of everything right now.

Asker Anonymous Asks:
You know you can unfollow vegan instagrams if you're triggered by their lifestyle instead of complaining about it 👏 Rude
sophie-melissa sophie-melissa Said:

I’m not rude. I actually have a few close friends that are vegan.

I don’t have anything against the people personally, but I do notice a lot of people using it as a way to restrict further and I constantly see people being forced into it by fear, which had happened to me on here A LOT, which IS rude. It then becomes unacceptable to be not vegan.

This whole things is ridiculous I hate this site sometimes.

You’re all the best.

Seriously though, I have nothing against people with different choices but it’s becoming ‘cool’ in the ‘eating disorder community’ which is such a competitive one and ill one at that.

It is really is triggering, and definitely not right for everyone (and in my opinion nobody should make a choice like that until they are fully recovered) but it’s so hard to avoid these days!

smile-in-possibility:

sophie-melissa:

Is anyone here in recovery and NOT vegan??

It used to be frozen yogurt and cottage cheese and now everyone’s telling everyone that’s bad and literally the whole of my Instagram is vegan, drinking almond milk and eating salads

I drink whole milk,…

Never heard of that! But I don’t really like almonds :o

Exactly, nothing to regret about normal milk!!

Asker Anonymous Asks:
I'm fully recovered and vegan, I eat almond milk because stealing milk from pregnant cows who are treated worse than shit is wrong and fucking weird. It's not an eating disorder thing, it's not a ay to restrict calories and fat or sugar or whatever, I eat candy and chocolate and cake and white bread whenever I want. It's compassionate and ethical and I do not appreciate you saying it's an eating disorder thing, it's a lot bigger than trying to fit into size 6 jeans, it's saving the planet.
sophie-melissa sophie-melissa Said:

Seriously fuck off

Is anyone here in recovery and NOT vegan??

It used to be frozen yogurt and cottage cheese and now everyone’s telling everyone that’s bad and literally the whole of my Instagram is vegan, drinking almond milk and eating salads

Six weeks till uni and I am not ready in the slightest, and feel so ill constantly ahh

Legs ache all day and all night.

I google it.

Then panic, and I don’t know what to do anymore as I’m so sure it’s MS and that’s what’s bothering me and the doctors are not listening and I’m so scared

Been doing them for the last few months and I’m not sure, I’m supposed to be discharged in September as I’m moving so will stop then! It’s such a pain though :(

I find writing out my food diaries so tiresome, I really don’t enjoy it.

It actually makes it harder to eat too as writing it all down afterwards makes me feel so greedy and it makes me feel worse about myself? A few months ago I didn’t mind, but as I’ve been increasing I feel like it looks like I eat so much and it’s embaressing.

I don’t know, it’s my least favourite thing about treatment.