I'm Sophie and I'm 19 and living in North London, I am hoping to study illustration this year. I have also been in recovery from anorexia nervosa since May 2011 and this is my little blog of what I get up to day to day.

The illness taught me a lot, I learned to trust myself and am slowly learning to love myself for who I am and not be constantly controlled by food.

I suffered badly and it nearly took away everything I had. I like to think I can offer help and advice to anyone suffering or at least can just be there to listen if you need to talk. My ask is open :-)

Ask me Anything!
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Stay hungry, stay foolish.
Steve Jobs
Asker Anonymous Asks:
how old?
sophie-melissa sophie-melissa Said:

I’m 19 :)


i think it would be neat if netflix doubled as a dating site like “here are 9 other singles in your area that watched supernatural for 12 straight hours”

(via soulmind-body)

If there is anything I can do to help then let me know, ok. ?

Thank you xx I will be okay think I just need to rest when I can and try my best to cope with the week ahead. It’s odd as I’m doing so much better food wise but feeling weaker than ever with all these odd pains? :(

This weekend has been so stressful and packed and I just want to sleep.

So many appointments over the next week too and also got tickets for London Pick Me Up, so that too and I can’t find this energy. I feel so weak.

Today I re-lived my childhood with my family on a cadburys easter egg trail!
Love easter so much!

Today I re-lived my childhood with my family on a cadburys easter egg trail!

Love easter so much!


I’d rather be a ‘failure at anorexia’ than a corpse.

(via w-anderingrecovery)

Asker Anonymous Asks:
When you ate 3000 calls how did you spread it out throughout the day? xx
sophie-melissa sophie-melissa Said:

The only reason I started to eat 3000 was because I found myself ‘saving’ food until the night time, so I used to restrict at meals and have a lot more food during the night. This basically meant I had no energy during the day and my days still very much resolved around food. I thought I was the only one but I now know this is really common. 

On 3000 (and sometimes a fair bit more) I didn’t have this problem and although it was hard it meant I learned to eat decent meals AND have my large night snack, anyway I’m rambling now. It was roughly if I remember right.

Breakfast - 500
Snack- 200
Lunch - 500
Snack - 300
Dinner - 600
Desert - 200
Snack - 700

This probably looks quite disordered but I found it worked for me and slowly stopped my extreme hunger, and I know people moan about calories but not sure how else I can explain x

Asker Anonymous Asks:
Would you do a fear foods list?
sophie-melissa sophie-melissa Said:

Urm these have always baffled me as I don’t see how they are helpful for me or anyone else? It just seems so disordered / competitive to me?

I don’t mean this in a horrible way to anyone that has done one I just personally don’t like them. Also I don’t have that many fear foods now, just a few I still struggle with x

Asker Anonymous Asks:
I think people think people with EDs maintain on more because the average person has 0 idea what they eat, and massively underestimate, whereas a lot of 'recovered' people still count every calorie... if that anon is worrying about having to be 'careful' post-ED, just don't be, enjoy your life, you wont want more food than your body needs anyway, so stop counting and live a little
sophie-melissa sophie-melissa Said:

Exactly, well said :)

No need to worry about it because by that stage you (hopefully) you won’t be counting and won’t care, you will just be able to eat what you want and it really doesn’t matter how many calories are in it

Your body will decide and sort itself out.